Why Me?

I finally thought it was my turn. My turn to have a baby in a split second it was gone. Sunday Aug. 8, 2010 the start of the worst 3 days of my life. My water breaks at 19 weeks. I get to the hospital and the doctor's say there is nothing they can do my baby won't survive. They say they think I have an incompetent cervix and my next pregnancy could go fine. They say a stitch can keep it closed so I can carry a baby full term. I ask them if there is anything they can do to speed the process up of course they say no. It is better to let my body take care of it itself. To me it feels like torture so I sit and wait. Finally the next day they start to induce labor. 2 days later it finally happens. It was a boy. I just wish I could have him back. Life isn't fair. Now I fear I may fail my classes because I am super far behind and I can't get focused.